My mom and Fabian had been friends in Minot, ND. When my mom began to contact him again, he came to visit us in Kansas. It was only a few days, but during that time, he proposed to my mom. We were moving again.
I was so very angry.
My dad had married his high school sweetheart. The affairs he had in his first and second marriage were with her. He always wanted to marry her. Now he had the chance. I didn't care. I didn't like her. She wasn't my mom. Pat tried to befriend me. She tried to include me in their family. But I didn't want to be a part of their family. I just wanted my dad. I still didn't understand why dad didn't want me. I was angry.
My mom was now going to marry this complete stranger to me and whisk us back to North Dakota. I didn't want to go back to North Dakota. I hated North Dakota. I had friends in Kansas. Real friends. Friends who had me come over to their houses. Friends I wanted to keep. I hated Fabian.
I grew bitter.
When my mom and Fabian were married, he took over my job of taking care of mom. Now what was a I supposed to do?!
He tried. He really did try. So he bought me whatever I wanted. I became a greedy brat. Fabian had the nicest house I had ever lived in. He let me paint my room whatever color I wanted. I had nice clothes to wear. I had a Nintendo. But it wasn't enough. I became mean and snotty.
I was teased in school. I couldn't make friends. I felt like I was living in a tornado.
I hated being in North Dakota and demanded to move back. When it didn't happen, I became very depressed. I had no idea what I was supposed to do. I began to look to boys to fill the void in my life.
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